Well, I’m on vacation next week, so we’ll see how it goes.  I’m feeling touches of motivation again, but that’s no guarantee.  I’ll at least have the days free with no distractions, which I can’t seem to deal with and write at the same time any more.

Think I might just start back in with “Lowborn” in the next couple of days.  I’m feeling the writing bug, and I have a week’s vacation coming up in a week or so.

If I haven’t already mentioned it, I’m going to put “Barren Harvest” up on a shelf and save it for next Halloween.  It’s simply too tied to the season to post at any other time.  At least I’ll have a story pretty much ready to go immediately when the time rolls around.

For now though, it’s back to Final Fantasy 9.  It’s a nice change of pace from the convuluted story and complete ass mechanics of 8, which I just played for the first time.  I skipped it quite on purpose, and I’m glad I never bothered until it was bargain bin price ( and played it on an emulator for save states )

9 is a little too cartoonish in visual style for the darkness in a lot of the story, but it was nice to have one last episode hearkening back to the old superior fantasy stories before shifting fully into the emo protagonists with virtually nothing resembling a high fantasy world that the series seems to have pissed off towards.

As I’ve said before:  RPGs were the genesis of my PnP fantasy world, and that’s the genesis of my writing.  Going back to my roots seems to wake me back up and give me the will to write again.

Here’s hoping that it works again, and that nothing comes up to slap me down to the ground again any time soon if it does.

Or insert whatever greeting you want in there. It’s always been Christmas to me, so that’s what I ‘say’.

Yep, I’m still vegetating. Starting to feel better and have story ideas float around again, so we’ll see what happens.

Well, the last time I hit a low point like this, just vegetating on video games was what pulled me out of it, and actually inspired a lot of writing ( some of which still isn’t published because I’m not releasing any brand new stories until they’re complete )

So, rather than fighting it, I’m just jumping straight into the games.  Games, comics and the like were what originally inspired my PnP role-playing game, and that’s the inspiration for the world/characters in my fantasy stories as Dark.  It’s sort of a full circle thing.  I have to go back to the beginning and begin the circle again before I can get back to a place where I feel motivated again.

I’ve already had a few flashes of feeling good, but not enough just yet.  It will eventually reach a point where I can’t contain all the ideas and such floating around in my head, and that’s when I should go on another writing binge.  Here’s to hoping that nothing comes along as bad as this time to beat me down again.

Beat Castlevania Symphony of the Night again in a single day — even with grinding for the Crissagrim.  Beat Final Fantasy I on Dawn of Souls, and I’m working on II now.  Even though they’re much easier than the original NES versions, I consider them excellent, and a great deal of fun to play.  The experience is very much from what I consider the epitome of Final Fantasy, which is IV and VI — yet still has all the nostalgia of the original games as well.

Anyway, that’s how I’m trying to get my groove back.  Hey, at least this easy to use blog lets me update without hassle, so I won’t be completely silent because I can’t be bothered to do minimal html work to add a news item to the website 🙂

Off to bed.  Long days at work hasn’t been helping my forward momentum.

*sigh* Back in a slump again.  I simply don’t feel like doing anything at the moment.  Combination of normal depression, the holidays, and screwed up work hours.

Going through all the stuff that’s worked in the past, which involves a lot of staying off the internet — or at least interacting on the internet.

I’m trying.  That’s all I can do.