Or insert whatever greeting you want in there. It’s always been Christmas to me, so that’s what I ‘say’.
Yep, I’m still vegetating. Starting to feel better and have story ideas float around again, so we’ll see what happens.
Yearly Archives: 2009
What I’m up to
Well, the last time I hit a low point like this, just vegetating on video games was what pulled me out of it, and actually inspired a lot of writing ( some of which still isn’t published because I’m not releasing any brand new stories until they’re complete )
So, rather than fighting it, I’m just jumping straight into the games. Games, comics and the like were what originally inspired my PnP role-playing game, and that’s the inspiration for the world/characters in my fantasy stories as Dark. It’s sort of a full circle thing. I have to go back to the beginning and begin the circle again before I can get back to a place where I feel motivated again.
I’ve already had a few flashes of feeling good, but not enough just yet. It will eventually reach a point where I can’t contain all the ideas and such floating around in my head, and that’s when I should go on another writing binge. Here’s to hoping that nothing comes along as bad as this time to beat me down again.
Beat Castlevania Symphony of the Night again in a single day — even with grinding for the Crissagrim. Beat Final Fantasy I on Dawn of Souls, and I’m working on II now. Even though they’re much easier than the original NES versions, I consider them excellent, and a great deal of fun to play. The experience is very much from what I consider the epitome of Final Fantasy, which is IV and VI — yet still has all the nostalgia of the original games as well.
Anyway, that’s how I’m trying to get my groove back. Hey, at least this easy to use blog lets me update without hassle, so I won’t be completely silent because I can’t be bothered to do minimal html work to add a news item to the website 🙂
Off to bed. Long days at work hasn’t been helping my forward momentum.
Slumping
*sigh* Back in a slump again. I simply don’t feel like doing anything at the moment. Combination of normal depression, the holidays, and screwed up work hours.
Going through all the stuff that’s worked in the past, which involves a lot of staying off the internet — or at least interacting on the internet.
I’m trying. That’s all I can do.
Blame Star Trek and Rifftrax
Nothing done tonight. You can blame Star Trek and Rifftrax for that. The new Star Trek riff is highly recommended *laugh* The movie is excellent in and of itself, but the riff is a riot too. Watch it once, then load up that Rifftrax MP3 and enjoy it in a whole other dimension.
Live long and prosper. I’m off to bed.
Depression is a bitch
I had a trigger a while back — just about the time I decided to rework the whole website. I was on a major writing binge before that ( even though most of it is still unpublished, because I’m not putting out any new stories that aren’t complete now )
It just takes me a while to pull out of a spiral and get back to writing nowadays. I finally wrote a bit more of Barren Harvest, but I’m still not fully in the mode. Seems like every time I’m really on my game, something gets in the way. Then when I’m free, I don’t feel like writing.
Think I may have to put Harvest aside for a little bit and see if Lowborn flows better. Too tired to start a new chapter tonight, so that will be for tomorrow. I’m introducing a new character, building toward the penultimate conflict of the story, and setting up the ending. Too much to wrap my brain around at this time of night *laugh*
If anybody has any ideas of stories that you’d like to see, feel free to speak up. A spark like that could be what I need to get jumping. Did I mention some bit of history in another story that you’d like to see play out in its own tale? Wonder why some character developed a certain quirk? I’ve had suggestions like that before, and that’s how both Merchant Princess and Ebon Genesis came about.
I have a million story ideas floating around, but the depression just keeps me from getting excited and writing. A little inspiration from outside might do the trick.
Ditto for any LesLumens ideas. Doesn’t matter how out there they are, I’ll consider them. Even things that are really off the wall may have a place, or serve as a plot bunny for other authors I talk to.
Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Years ideas would be most welcome, as that contest is going on at Lit right now. Awful erotica of that nature ( or any nature ) would be most welcome too, for new LST3Ks. I have a couple of donations on hand right now, but I just can’t get them flowing.
If you want to join in on riffing awful stories, drop me a line about that, too. Having other people on board makes that so much more fun, and might be inspiring.
What it all boils down to is that I need a boost *laugh*